this apartment is indeed too cold. wondering what i should do this evening. the birthdays just arent the same anymore. i dont expect any presents or anything. i didnt get any for the last few years, so there is no way i would care this year. anything or any present for any occasion will be returned. its not like i use shit people give me. i guess when i use hard earned money and by my self someting. i feel like i have done something with my life, and pid for what i deserve to have. this is a random ass thought, so stay with me. sighs. yahoo is going thru an upgrade of some sort. i would like to send some folks my blog or whatever. it'll be back up when i am sleep though. blah to that. and AOL just plain sux donkey balls in my opinion.
if anyone were to read these posts, they could say that i am bitter, upaset, a bitch, whatever. the funny thing is that i dont care. i am not in the world to impress anyone. the only person i need to impress is close to 4 yrs old, and they get impressed easily.
i do know now that dealing with a spoiled brat a few times in my life has affected how i want my seed to be. i want my baby to have the finer things in life. but i do not want to be a crutch, or ruin her to the point that all she will ever be is a pretty face and nothing more. and i will definitly teach her, her social security number early, and teach her what i can about credit. we will start when she starts asking for money for clothes, and phones, candy and ice cream. i dont want my baby to have to work hard. but i do want her to realize that it isnt always about looks, or what man can take care of you.
i met someone that i am forever feeling sorry for. its like they just dont get it. everyone is a yes man. or everyone is telling them they are right. they dont wish to earn a buck, just sit around playing with clothes and make-up. the world is cruel. and unforgiving. i should know. i am cruel and of this world(not really) and when they fall, it will not be pretty at all. but i am evil enough to want to see shit collapse. i get off on shit like that. what can i say?
No comments:
Post a Comment